Sunday, February 26, 2006
.: 2722006.1051hours :.
hey.. in e library now.. during recess.. lala.. sry abt my previous post larhx.. kept beating around e bush, but i already said how hard it is 2 blog when i'm depressed wat.. still feeling depressed 2day.. cried myself 2 sleep 4 e past 2 days.. hate e feeling of realisation tt i only haf <10>
hey.. 4got 2 blog abt yesterday at church.. well. here goes.. e youth hadta lead worship yesterday larhx.. so i was lyk.. ping ming practice on sat.. mum made me.. i practiced every other day larhx!! then guess wat.. i TOTALLY screwedd up during worship.. had cold feet.. wtv.. i donch really care how u phrase it.. i just embarrassed myself in front of my whole church.. in case u din know.. tt's lyk.. 50 ppl around there, but tt's still alot..
lame shit larhx.. e worship in e beginning was already a bad start larhx.. played so many wrong notes.. jon was lyk.. totally ok.. NOTHING WENT WRONG WITH HIM!!! YYY ONLY MEEEE?! ahhhx!! gah!! i'm really beginning 2 hate my lyf.. sighx!! anywaeashx, i finally managed 2 upload my maple.. quite content abt it larhxs.. 'nywaeshx, i really really wanna change my blog template.. saw 1 nice 1 awhile ago.. some graveyard girl thingey.. i lyk depressing templates.. sorta comforts me tt i'm not e only 1 feeling depressed in this world.. sighx.. i keep typing wrongly.. shows how depressed i m.. then again, it cld just b tt i can't type fast without typing wrongly half e time.. oh wellx..
nice colour rite.. teeheexz.. i'm going blind.. gotta change it back 2 black 1st then later change e whole paragraph back 2 yellow.. anywaeshx, yeahx.. as if worship weren't bad enuff, i hadta play a few second solo act 4 our special item.. sucked larhx!! i TOTALLY screwed tt part up larhx!! lyk.. i played ONLY e 1ST NOTE correct, then screwed up e next consecutive notes.. later part of e song was ok, but i was lyk.. super depressed liaox.. wanted 2 just cry.. but tt'd b more embarrassing, so i just concentrated on e song and hoped and prayed tt i wouldn't tear..
thank God i didn't..
anywaeshx, i didn't eat during e break.. e rest is in my previous entry.. go read it larhx.. i'm 2 lazy 2 repeat.. later hoonster rant on and on at me again 4 repeating wat was already there.. shall go and try 2 find tt nice blogskin then apply it..
sayo nara..
STILL depressed..
>>han/sotongball__..
__- LOVEdeprived -__
|6:51 PM|
